Thesis blues

I am suffering from what is called the 'writer's block'. Not that I am a great writer...this is my first post on two years after all. But its not because of dearth of ideas. The problem is that there are too many of them. My head is cramming with them. I guess the easiest way to ease my mind is to vomit everything out here so that all the mind gets cleared. After all its pretty much like the stomach really. If you stuff it too much, its bound to ache. And smell. And rot. So before dysentery strikes, its advisable to vomit. Really. I am attempting something that I've never done before. Its called 'research thesis'. Its supposed to be a lot of hard work. A lot of reading. And analysing. The good news is that I like doing both. The bad news is that I have to write everything. But I am currently suffering from what they call a 'writer's block'. Not that I am a great writer...really.

my new mundane life...

Finally...after four and a half years of very eventful yet boring, hectic yet laid back college life, i am in DELHI...! In my college years i learned that i am a simpleton...now that i m here, i hope to change into somebody whose not half as stupid..this city is as fast as the light and prevention is always better than cure itself...
my life is very adventurous...i take risks at the peril of my life at least twice every day...u see, crossing highways on foot, when the signal is not in your favour is not exactly a cake-walk.. ;)
i do my own laundry now...well almost...n i buy my own eatables...which is kinda cool!
i've discovered my love for retail therapy... i love trying out hundreds of clothes on...feeling smug without buying anything...i think the sales person in the last mall i visited probably will not let me enter the showroom again...
i've found that i am surrounded by people who love me and are always ready to takes pains for my sake...
its the first time in 22 years of my life that i am living away from my family...n i m liking it..its like the first step of taking the control of my life in my own hands...I M LOVIN IT!!!!

The Religious Rivalry..

What is religion...but a guiding path to God. Don't all religions advocate existence of one...and only one God?Don't they preach love, brotherhood, peace, goodwill, kindness and humanity??Then why every religion has a blood stained history??Why do institutions spreading such noble messages have a bloody past and present??Not one if them is half as pure and virgin as the ideal..
It is said that no two human beings are the same...differences are in appearances, thoughts, habits...but they all are human beings who live together in a house..a community..a region...
Religions, similarly, are a product of individual ideals and ideas..and are understandably different from one another. But essentially they all point to the same direction..aka..GOD!!Still they are at loggerheads with one another.
The need and desire to completely eradicate the presence of one by another is unfathomable to me..This intense hatred and loathing is on display every other day in our motherland by way of slaughtering, terrorizing and vandalism is simply DISGUSTING...i fail to understand the point of view or logic...my guess is that there ain't any...
What can be the reason behind unreasonable massacres but HATE for everything that God stands for...how can a religion justify inflicting brutality and death as a path to pious living,...a path to God?How can anybody be labeled as a believer or non-believer on the basis of the religion he follows?
They say that there is method in every madness. I agree...these are surely the methods of the DEVIL...

no reason, no rhyme...

Today, i write my first blog entry ever...
This is my attempt to pour out some thoughts on this medium and try and get some perspective. Collecting information is useless until assimilated...assimilation is exactly what i aim to do.
Life is said to be abysmal in every respect...is it a preparatory journey from one unknown place to another? is it celebration of the gift of life, vigour and beauty?is it a material realm meant to be bypassed to reach a higher spiritual realm?these are some incoherent and unoriginal questions that come to my mind when i think of concept or logic behind our existence.
I am not religious, am not an enthusiastic temple visitor...cant remember the last time i went into one of those, i cant recite more than a couple of prayers, dont know one bhajan from another, and absolutely dont believe in idol worship. But i am a believer. I have faith in a higher power.
I dedicate my first writing to the Almighty.
RADHASOAMI!!